last few weeks of school thinking

I am only two papers, a final test, and thesis away from a break, from temporary freedom, and from actually being done with school. Truthfully I am not exactly sure if I'm more psyched about no longer being a student and getting the chance to earn money, or sad that I will no longer get allowance and actually be in school.

I'm excited to finally have a lot of time to exercise, make things and actually work on selling some of the things I make.

I'm scared that I will eventually feel anxious of not doing anything productive that will produce an output or a grade of some sort.

I'm looking forward to organizing all my things and finally putting aside the school stuff that I've been storing (which I thought I might need sometime in college).

I'm worried that I won't find a good job and will end up being a bum/gym rat.

I'm happy that I will be able to let my parents check off their second child from the list of tuition fees.

I'm nervous of having to start from the bottom.

Then again, I could actually still have one more term left, depending on how thesis goes.
Today, my thesis mate's bag got stolen, and in it were her laptop, SLR, and hard drive that contained the file we were suppose to present to our mentor a few minutes after it was actually stolen. It was so unfortunate and bad timing (and a big jackpot for the thief), and it made me, for a moment, think about what would've happened if we weren't able to back up that file in her hard drive (which we did, thank God), and lost everything we had actually worked on (with a due date that is in less than a week). It was upsetting to think that we could've lost the file that we've been editing for the past few weeks, but the thought of having to defer thesis actually came to mind and it didn't seem so bad. Maybe the feeling is only for selfish, comfortable reasons of not having to worry about work yet and being able to slack off for a term and still get allowance. I don't know. Of course I'm still going to work on trying to finish the thesis by August. But if things come up and I'm asked to stay for one more term, I'll take it as a sign that I'm not ready for the real world yet.